I’m sorry if I’m writing a lot about the Flood. It’s been really traumatic – combine the empath-me with the flood-damaged-homeowner-me, and you have the unbearable-anxiety-riddled-me – who is trying to work and be a mom and stay in some kind of balance. It’s not working very well. I’m not used to feeling like this. Depression, I understand – anxiety, not so much.
The water is receding, though we still have hundreds of people unaccounted for. Hopefully, that number will go down as people who have no power get access to communications again. Kudos to Xcel Energy for working so very hard to keep the lights on. Even though my half-house has a lot of damage, it never lost power. The flood insurance adjuster came today, took about 100 pictures, and will hopefully file a good claim on our behalf, or however that works. Turns out we’re insured by Lloyd’s of London, which makes me feel a little hoity-toity. We’ll see how they measure up in terms of fairness. I don’t have a lot of faith in insurance companies, but I’m trying to stay positive, beneath my strung-so-tight nerves and flesh and bone under this fragile layer of skin that covers them.
I hope that soon, I don’t get that frisson of fear when I see a rain cloud over the mountains. That soon, I will stop trying to take roads that are closed. Soon, I will be able to walk the mountains without fear of the earth collapsing beneath my feet. Soon.
And now, here’s a chicken.
Denver, Colorado.
Quote of the day: “You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.” — Max Ehrmann
Daily gratitudes:
Not hitting a bird with my truck this morning
My new green chile-ground beef dish
Sunbeams at sunset tonight
MKL’s supportivenss (and hugs)
Wearing my softest T-shirt tonight
And a special shout-out to the lady in the grocery store who told me that “That color looks great on you!” You have no idea how much I needed to hear that at just that moment.
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September 16, 2013 at 11:15 pm
Katherine Gordy Levine
My heart is with all. All you describe is what trauma does. The very fact that you can write says you are doing well. I will be sharing your posts on Pinterest and Facebook.
I am trying to share some knowledge about trauma. I directed mental health crisis teams in NY before, during, and after 911. So some say that makes me an expert on trauma and recovery. I spent today creating and finally posting a Trauma Survival infogram on Pinterest.
I hope is might be helpful to some and would love you to pick at it and give me some feedback. Thank you and I will understand if you have no time, inclination or energy to do so.
Kat
September 17, 2013 at 5:17 pm
Seasweetie
Thank you, Kat. I welcome any help and will take a look at it as soon as I can. You are a dear.
September 17, 2013 at 12:16 am
Katherine Gordy Levine
My original pin mis-spelled trauma in the heading. The story of my dysgraphia and aging brain. Minor problem all things considered. Here is the corrected pin. http://www.pinterest.com/pin/147141112798884506/
September 17, 2013 at 6:07 am
So Does That Mean I'm Southern
I have been away on vacation and just getting caught up on my blogging friends. My heart goes out to you and all the people in your area effected by the floods. Keeping you in my prayers.
September 17, 2013 at 5:17 pm
Seasweetie
Thank you, my southern sister!
September 17, 2013 at 10:55 am
ekgo
That’s a very nice chicken.
You can come stay with me if you need to run away for a little while.
September 17, 2013 at 5:19 pm
Seasweetie
Thank you, that’s so sweet. We may have to meet in person sometime!
September 17, 2013 at 5:39 pm
ekgo
You know, I almost emailed you to see if we could get together for dinner this past Sunday because I was GOING to be up in Rocky Mountain National Park and we’d have been coming through your area right around dinner time.
But you already know why none of that happened.
I’m glad the sun is out and things are drying up. Better things are around the bend…pretty much because they kind of have to be.
September 17, 2013 at 6:16 pm
Seasweetie
You just made me laugh. And I would have loved that! Next time.
September 17, 2013 at 6:30 pm
lucindalines
How wonderful to have people who would say a nice thing in the middle of a terrible event like you are going through. Don’t apologize for writing about this. It is so much better than listening to what news reporters say. I am wishing you the best in this event, and isn’t it, say ironic, that it takes a near loss to make us think about what to do with certain things. Again, God’s blessings on you.
September 17, 2013 at 6:54 pm
Seasweetie
Thank you, Lucinda, for both of your supportive comments.
September 18, 2013 at 10:06 pm
cantfindmenow
I love that through the pain…..there is a chicken…”…and Now, for something completely different” LOL! {{{HUGS}}}